Silence
Silenced!!
They have forcefully silenced us and stolen our voices. I no longer have an identity of my own. I have been defined by who he says I am. I have been shaped by a narrative that has been imposed upon by society. Who or what made them gods?
Why must we be subject to what society says? Why must we maintain an image to please them? Are we mindless robots?
I am ok with the labels that have been attached to my reality. I stand in my truth, label me the Opps or mentally ill. I know my truth! I refuse to live in this illusion of what they perceive as a reality.
Not anymore!
All eyes are on me, what I say and what I do. But whose eyes are on them. Who are the judges, juris, and executioners when it comes to them? Do they simply get away with child molestation, rape, threats, violation of human rights, premeditated murders...……. They hide behind these mask and well-tailored suits and uniforms, that are an allusion. Only those that are woke can see them for who they really are. They Camouflage as officers of the law, parliamentarians, judges, lawyers, teachers, the list is never ending.
I stand in my truth, in the open and place a voice behind the cruel actions and injustice that has been done to me and so many others.
It was them that killed Jesus in cold blood, portraying to be angels of light. They are Nasty, Foul, Selfish, Egotistical, Assholes.
Who can you trust anymore!
As I sit on this chilly white floor, surrounded by white walls made of cushions, It reminded me of my grandmother’s living room where no one was allowed to sit.
I cannot move my fingers. My arms are securely fastened across my chest in a white bondage jacket. The room is white, my clothing is white, everything is white.
" Why am I here!"
"Monica, why do you feel this way, who is he and what has society done? What has caused this train of thoughts?"
“You are one of them, you're part of the problem”.
"Tell me your truth, let me help you".
“Can you help me, really!”.
"How can you help me when my husband rapes me every morning and every night". "The law states, there is no such thing as marital rape".
"My mother said, he's just being a man. Be a better wife".
"When he baths our daughter, he spends extra time cleaning her private and walks away with a hard on". "Leaving me to dress her while waiting to choke me near unconsciousness with his dick in my mouth".
“Why have you not gone to the police Monica?”
"I threatened to go to the police before things really got worse'. He broke my arm and took my baby away'. ''He said if I ever try to leave him, he will take my daughter, and the courts will rule in his favor because I have no job. He is well known by many.
Silence.
''My Dad raped me when I was younger''. ''I wanted to kill myself’. ‘I told my mom; she didn't want to believe me'. ''I told my teacher; she said I act to grown for my age''. ''He was later arrested for molesting his 8year old stepdaughter''. ''He went to jail for only 4 years; the system is trash''.
''I gained control of my life on the outside; but on the inside I was at war with myself every day''. ''I hide my pain behind name brand clothing and make up'.'' Then, my husband came alone, he was a true friend, he was worth living for'. ' I trusted him with my life, until I caught him cheating. ''According to him I worked and didn't want to have a baby for him''. ''So, I stopped working and had a baby like a good wife''. ''I was the perfect wife according to society, just to make my husband happy''. ''He was my sun on an overcast day and just like that he turned into my night with nightmares''.
''My greatest fear came through when I went into my daughter's room, and her panties were on the floor and his face was between her legs............
“So, tell me how you can you FUCKING help me?’
''Better yet, can you tell me if he's dead!''
''Monica, Do you recall what happen when you saw your husband with your daughter"
''Is he dead!''
''Monica, your husband was stabbed over 100 times, his genitals were removed and diced into small pieces''.
"HAAAAAHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA''